Alone with the lonely

wpid-img_20150601_085934.jpg           ALONE WITH THE LONELY-

BY eMILY h. cATO

aLONE WITH THE lONELY

SOMEBODY PLEASE HOLD ME.. JUST FOR A MINUTE… I REALLY NEED A HUG.

LOVE IS A HORRIBLE HORRID DRUG.

ONCE YOUR HUGH YOU ONLY WANT TO GET HIGHER-

ofF THE roLLERcOASTER OF DESIRE

yOU WOLD DO ANYTHING FOR THAT SEXY SMILE KISS OR WHATEVER

AT LEAST FOR A WHILE.

aBUSE STARTS OFF SMALL IN BABY STEPS.

fIRST HE MANIPULATES YOU AND LIES TO YOU ALL OF THE TIME~

THEN HE STARTS TO REQUEST THAT YOU WAIT ON HIM HAND AND FOOT HE SAYS YOU DO IT CUZ YOU LOVE HIM, BUT YOU CAN TELL HE CAN EASILY GET THESE THINGS HIMSELF- A POP FROM THE KITCHEN OR A BEER FROM A FRIDGE.

nEXT HE STARTS TELLING YOU YOU ARE WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING. aND TO STOP PICKING FIGHTS WITH HIM CUZ HE IS RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING all of the damn time too EVERYTHING!

NEXT HE HATES ALL YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND NICPICKS THEM TO PIECES WHEN THEY ARE NOT AROUND-JUST TO BE A JACKASS BUT YOU BETTER NOT SAY ANYTHING ABOUT HIS FAMILY CUZ BLOOD IS THICKER THEN THIN WATER!

sOONER THAN LATER HE STARTS TO HIT YOU. FOR ME IT TOOK FIVE SUCH ATTACKS GETTING MUCH AND MUCH MORE VIOLENT AND FREQUENT OVER THE PAST 15 YRS. hE WAS AN EXPERT AT GASLIGHTING ME. hE BLAMED ALL MY ISSUES ON PARANOIA AND INSANTY.

wELL NOW WHAT? OBVIOUSLY I NEED MORE THERAPY. BECAUSE NOW I AM A VICTIM ALL OVER AGAIN- A SAINT AND A SINNER ALL ROLLED INTO ONE. aND THE TWO THINGS I DO NOT BELIEVE IN MOST ARE SUICIDE AND MURDER.sO I REFUSE TO KEEP KILLING MYSELF FOR HIM AND I REFUSE TO ALLOW HIM TO SNUFF ME OUT. IF THAT SOUNDS PARANOID FINE YOU GO LIVE THERE WITH MY CRAZYY ASS HUBBY AND HIS DUMB BIG ENMESHED FAMILY.

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Alone with the lonely

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